i cannot live
a noble heart cracks always sudden but known and my skin doesn't feel like my skin it is cold and static will you tell me you love me the last face i see do not forget that i was here and that i could speak my boy my girl my self reality shatters none of it was true or all of it impaled me so i cannot breathe and everything ends
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i did nothing to him
i have made mistakes but my mind has become so tangled all i have created has turned to dust there is nothing anymore for me to love and follow the same thing over and over again and again you make me angry you make me snap and then there is no hope take your fingers
from my throat i am not irritable and rash yet inside me is something dangerous which your wisdom should fear -when my own words are broken:
but i'm scared i might not have that kind of time so what'll you do when all that you love slowly drifts away from you and there's no-one you can blame except yourself? when you fall, and you bleed will you need me to be the one that keeps you operating? cause if so then i'll get comfortable so cut the bullshit and show me that you mean it when you tell me that you'll love me every day until you die, cause you're the only thing i need to help keep me alive for the next few years or so cause you're the meanest when you know that i need it and the worst thing that you could ever do to me is leave me wondering if you still love me too Near Death Fail Comp (Must Watch Til End) - Mom Jeans. that skull had a tongue in it
and could sing once she is gone goodnight my softest wish and empty hands wandering skin veins you were a light when everything was loud and dark and soulless you laughed and now you lie cold and there is nothing light about you anymore i can't believe what i've done.
i am deflated. i will never be whole again. they all think i'm crazy. i open my mouth and the words are so clear but all they can hear is mumbling lies. i'm frantic and moving and shaking and scared and it's getting hard to breath without gasping. my head is spinning, i'm dizzy and lost. i have lost. i have nobody who loves me anymore. goodbye dad. goodbye mom. goodbye O. why does this have to be the end..? i wasn't ready for you to turn your back on me.. trust a liar.. you've been deceived.. and i'm the one paying for it
i could have done it but i didn't and now i'm stuck forever in a sea of screaming voices and soon forgotten memories. mother taught me:
kneel down pray pray pray then you will be good and clean then it will be okay so i hesitate as you do the same grasping for something good in this mess you've created and i could have ended it all but i am weak and worthless and deserve the same so shall i do it to you or to myself there is no more love in my body it is the witching time of night
when churchyards yawn and hell itself breathes out contagion to this world now could i drink hot blood and do such bitter business let me be cruel not unnatural i will speak daggers to her but use none i feel excellent and clever and quick
while yes my friends deceive me and my mother looks at me with hardened eyes i have to know its driving me mad insanity wraps its fingers around my throat and melts into my skin i need to get it out before i am totally completely consumed |
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